That's where I start to feel old. Seriously, I used to be hip, cool, even adventurous. Now, though...I don't know. It's like I've lost my edge. I was physically uncomfortable watching this show at times -what with the show's language (*gasp*) and NUDITY (*GASP*) and all.
I hate to say it but it seems since I've become a mother, I've turned into a PRUDE!
I can't help it though. Everywhere I go, everything I see, everything I do, I'm looking through this new Mom lens. I see things differently. It's as if since having my children, I have a higher standard to achieve simply because I'm a mother now. I have to be a good role model and set a good example - and that colors, influences, even taints everything else. And there's no "off duty". This Mom lens, it's always on.
Obviously my kids weren't at that show. Yet, as a Mom, I could see all the ways in which it was inappropriate for them. It's an odd thing, really. This new hat I wear that has taken over who I used to be.
In many ways I think it's better - that being a Mom has made me a better person. Or at least, a more conscientious person. At times, though, I don't even recognize the person I've become. I seem so un-fun and stick-in-the-mud-ish. (both real words, I assure you!) I'm a big fat party pooper who has lost my accepting open-mindedness and my piggish sense of humor and replaced it with serious, grown-up responsibility and duty to my children.
And they deserve that.
I just wish I could lighten up a little.
Because they deserve that, too.