It's been months since I posted anything here. It's not because there hasn't been anything noteworthy happening. Quite the opposite, actually. We've had big stuff going on. Lots of firsts to report. Memories made, big adventures to share. It certainly isn't that I haven't had the words running around in my head. Lord knows I am never in short supply of random thoughts, worries, concerns, memories I want to remember and stories I'm itching to share.
What I'm lacking (lately) is clarity. Focus. The want and desire is there...but the follow through and the coherent thought and motivation needed to get the words out is conveniently missing.
Today, however, was one of those days. One of those days that compounds everything I've been feeling for months and makes it bubble over. I've had many of these days lately, but today had a face (or faces), and stories of sadness, loss, and heartache. So many friends suffering. So many of my friends receiving bad news and struggling through their own journeys.
And it wasn't just close, personal friends, it was friends of friends. National news stories. Local news stories. So much pain and sorrow. Marital conflict, messy, ugly divorces, freak accidents, untimely deaths, health issues in babies too young to know even have a start in life, tragic losses and horrible circumstances that make you question God, people, society....everything.
Today was a Bad News Day.
As I sit here typing this, Alex is laying in my lap sleeping. I look down at him and can't help but count my blessings. Sure I've got my fair share of issues. Stuff is far from perfect in my world...but my family is all HERE, we're all HEALTHY, and SAFE.
Life is short and fragile. That's for sure. It's my one hope that while I'm here I can make a difference, leave my mark, and create a legacy of some sort that lives on long after I'm gone. If I can do that, then I will have done my part. Until then, I'm off to hug my babies just a little tighter. I suggest you do the same.