As I talked about here, I have been working on paying attention to the lessons in every day. The problem is, as I learn things about myself and become more self aware, I often like myself less instead of accepting myself more. However, the first step is becoming aware, right? Then I can work on improving things that need work, I suppose.
The first thing I've learned in this little experiment is that I talk too much. I've always been guilty of it. I used to get report cards home from school that showed how well I was doing academically but always said I talked too much in class. Apparently that hasn't changed as I've gotten older. I get it from my father. He's a talker. Considering my social anxieties it's surprising, actually, that I am, too. I guess it's my way of (over?) compensating for my fears. Maybe it's because I'm desperate for people's acceptance. So, what better way to get it than to scare them away by babbling too much. I know, makes perfect sense, right?
As I realize this flaw of being a "gasbag" (and have had it reinforced by everyone I know), I vow to talk less and listen more. Talking too much annoys people and I don't want to annoy anyone. People don't care about my stuff anyway. I'll "talk" here on my blog instead!
As I realize this flaw of being a "gasbag" (and have had it reinforced by everyone I know), I vow to talk less and listen more. Talking too much annoys people and I don't want to annoy anyone. People don't care about my stuff anyway. I'll "talk" here on my blog instead!
(Aren't you guys lucky?!?) :)
That way if you don't want to "listen" you can just stop reading - deal?
